27.2%

Thats the percentage of body fat thats currently taking up residence in my body. Yummy. I left Missouri at 130 pounds and managed to gain 15 since being back in California. Carne Asada burritos....I BLAME YOU. Ive noticed that I just cant find a happy medium weight-wise. At 130 I was too skinny. It didnt look so great on me, but here at 145 I look a little..well...meaty. So the man and I joined a gym. For different reasons obviously. He goes to maintain that oh so perfect body that I have the privilege of snuggling up to every night hes home. Im in heaven let me tell you. Now for me, Im there to lose these freaking 15 pounds! Okay maybe not 15. Id be happy with ten. Well, i'd be happy at 145 if I had lean muscle and was toned and my thighs stopped touching...again. Yup. I lost my ITC that I was so proud of regaining before i left Failssouri. ITC= Inner Thigh Clearance. It's that little beam of light you see between your thighs. No not THAT. Pervs. Unfortunately along with the loss of my ITC came the gaining of a spare tire around my waist that would make the Michelin man jealous! Okay Im over exaggerating..but we are our own worst critics right?

Anyways, so we joined the gym and pretty much average 3 times a week. Work schedules and gym childcare schedules have proven to be challenging. I weight myself the first day. 141 pounds. Weighed myself a week later. 143 pounds. Weighed myself this week...145 pounds. Talk about DISCOURAGING. Ive been kicking my ass on these machines and for what? To gain weight?! Eff you body. Eff you and your cruel jokes. However, tonight I learned my mistake. I know muscle weighs more than fat and blah blah blah. So im no longer weighing myself to judge progress. Im going to go by body fat percentage, which will be a much more accurate measure of how much ass ive been kicking. Like I said, right now im sitting at 27.2%...my goal is to get down to 22 percent by next March.

Hopefully I can stay motivated enough to get to the gym. Luckily I have a man who loves me regardless of what body shape I have at the moment, but at the same time supports me in my efforts to be healthier.

Clean Slate.

I figure since I started over in my real life I should start over in my blog as well. (Which Im going to try to write more on- I swear!). So I erased what was in here before and decided to start fresh. The last couple years of my life were epic fail (aside from the kiddoes) so I dont really want to relive them through the interwebz. Ive been back at work for over 4 months now and let me tell you it's AH-MAY-ZING! Some days I have to go in at 4am which isnt so great haha but for the most part my schedule isnt too bad. It just feels good to be working again and to be able to provide for my kids and feel like im taking control of my own life. It helps too that I love what I do and the people I work with are pretty awesome.

Now onto bigger...and BETTER things. I am ENGAGED! Yes, Im getting married. Im excited to spend the rest of my life with this wonderful amazing man who is crazy enough to want to be with me forever. The only thing im nervous about is planning a wedding. Ive never had one before! Lol..I dont even know where to start. I was looking at websites the other day and tips for planning and thought to myself "Oh My GAWD! This is why people elope to Vegas!". This chiz looks stressful haha. No no no, there will be no Bridezilla here. Honestly Im not so much excited about the wedding in general (even though it will be epic!) Im just excited to stand in front of all my family and friends and make this commitment to him. Okay okay enough about the mushy stuff ;-)

Im gonna leave this "first" entry at that because it's 7:45pm and I have to get up at 3am to go to work. Jooy. I will however add one last thing. There are things that you never think you would ever hear yourself say- until you have children. Tonight I had one of those moments.

"Stop trying to tell your little brother that the dog biscuits are skeleton cookies and clean the room!"

I love my kids.